提醒一下自己, 我放棄被眷養在象牙塔, 享受世人崇拜的眼光, 高高在上的學者姿態, 現今的我必須接受質疑, 與許多異樣的眼光, 我不可能討好所有人, 我本來就不是這種個性, 至於有多少人支持我與我有相同的調性並不是我真正在乎的事, 我向來只堅持自己認為對的, 值得做的事, IF 值是他人給的, 嚴格說來到目前賣的書是個位數, 大學時也幫學長協辦過書展, 那時還算有點小賺, 但現在人真的不看書吧! Robbin bird 問我哪時開始想做書苑, 嗯! 我只能說當你發現你是個很有想法, 想做很多研究, 正覺得自己有潛力解決一些難題的時候, 卻不斷被公廁所長說要製造更多的大便與垃圾, 好讓公廁得以繼續生存, 同時你發現要更進一步提高在公廁的地位就是要想辦法討好另三分之一的人, 我退卻了, 當象牙塔變成了公廁, 以往研究的孤獨與孤單被臭味所取代, 前者我一向都能忍受的, 但當你不斷看到國際默默無名的台灣學閥, 每每嘲諷著國際知名學者, 在場學者與學生卻各個聽得頭頭是道, 應聲附和, 學生與年輕學者前是大砲, 資深的學者前卻成為一條蟲, 勿忘初衷, 好友說, 不能怪他們, 哪天我繼續待在學界, 我也會跟他們一樣, 人都是要生存的, 好友選擇退出, 我想我也一樣, 我還想做研究, 想搞創意數學科學, 想自己研發玩具給孩子玩, 想弄進來我想要的書, 留塊清境的地盤, 雖偶爾也會遇到一些蠢事, 不友善的人群, 但我依舊是那個向來自我感覺良好, 自認為是全天下最聰明的死小孩.
(原 FB 貼文)
為什麼想做 獨立書局? 不想做研究了嗎? 恰恰相反, 我是因為想做研究想做教育才會做獨立書局的, I am a seller of knowledge when I give a talk in the auditorium room. I closed the door and sale my knowledge to the researchers and get the money from the government. We need to sell as much papers as we can in order to get us more credit. This is nothing to do with the fundamental truth of Nature. As a book seller, I am a seller of knowledge. I open the door and sell and distribute my knowledge to the public and people who have the interest on the knowledge. Though the knowledge may not relate with the real truth of the Universe. It would be good for your mind to have some perturbation of knowledge.
YHW (2014/2/22)
在書店還沒真正開始運作前, 在這個時空還不需要累積一堆讚的時候, 紀錄一下今天的想法與所參觀過的時空, 幾天來在中研院開會且以前剛回國時也在中研院工作過, 不過卻從不曾好好地參觀過胡適故居, 身為知識分子就該有為有守, 在中研院四分溪買了第一批書籍, 下午與好友與老公一起到胡適與董作賓的墓園, 看來真是物以類聚, 出國時很喜歡順道拜訪一些人的墓園, 可以沉思的好地方.
“哲人日已遠，典型在夙昔。 風簷展書讀，古道照顏色。” ——- 文天祥
Before this bookshop has been operated and before many people press like for this bookshop, I should make some record for the spacetime that I visited today. I work in academia sinica soon after I back to Taiwan and I have been here again these days for a conference. However, I never visit Hu Shih memorial hall until today. I shop a box of books for my bookshop at the sinica bookshop. In fact, I quite like some books that published by sinica or distributed by sinica. I with my friend and my husband went to the Hu Shih’s tomb and Dong Zuobin’s tomb this afternoon. It’s a good place for meditation.
YHW (2014/2/20)